Will He Suck My Dick?

 After that first experience with Kevin, it took a while before either one of us was ready to admit that anything had happened or to try it again. This was all contrary to the fact that I could not stop thinking about what we had done or what might happen if we were along again. It was about two weeks later when he agreed to come over and spend the night. I was really excited, nervous as hell and scared to death all at the same time.

I don't remember if we saw a movie or what we did that evening but we got back home pretty late. I had been worried that my younger brother was going to want to stay up with us and would ruin any chance of anything happening. He did try to hang with us but he was finally just too tired and fell asleep. My mom checked on us one last time before heading off to bed and then we had my room to ourselves. At first, it seemed like nothing was going to happen like he just wanted to forget that anything had happened. I just don't think I was gonna let that happen. I asked him if his got hard when he was sleeping. That led to some conversation about wet dreams and jacking off. Finally something we could talk about that would get us both involved and maybe get his dick out of his shorts.

I started rubbing my dick in my underwear and getting hard. I could see he was getting excited too. I finally decided to take the leap and pulled off my shorts. Now keep in mind we are still only 12 years old, neither of us fully developed and neither of us with a full bush. But my dick was hard and so was his. So I started stroking my dick. I liked to use some lotion to lube it up so I pulled out my stash from my Mom's dresser. I got some lotion on my hands and then offered him some. He didn't take any preferring to use just his spit and any precum that came his way.

While all this was happening I could not believe that I was actually naked with another boy. Is this what boys do together? If this how friendships are made and bonded? I wanted to reach over and touch his dick but I was still too afraid. I wanted him to offer to suck my dick again but he didn't seem interested in that this time. I kind of wanted him to dare me to suck his dick. I wasn't brave enough to offer but if he dared me then I would have to do it. But he didn't. We continued jacking, watching each other for technique and rhythm. Finally, it was too much for me and I could feel my balls pulling up in my nut sack. I could feel the pressure building and knew that I would not be able to hold this explosion much longer. With a gasp of relief, I felt the rush of cum through my dick and shooting out onto my chest. This was his clue to give up his load as well. He took the hint and delivered thick ropes of cum all over his chest as well. We both lay there for a few minutes just relaxing and enjoying the feeling of release. The musky smell of cum all over us both. I still wanted to reach out and touch his dick but I couldn't, now I was ashamed of what we had done. All the religious dogma that I was being fed started running though my head. Now I needed to get us cleaned up and we needed to forget that this ever happened.

It was fun while it lasted but now we needed to move on. We put our underwear back on and went to sleep not long after that. We didn't talk about what we had done or what any of it meant to either of us. It was like it had never happened again. It wasn't long after this that he moved away. I thought that if the temptation was gone, maybe I could forget about my experience and just stop fantasizing about dicks and boys and men.

It didn't work out that way though. Any time I would jack off, I would be thinking of him, or one of the guys that I saw in the locker room at school or one of the guys in the underwear ads that I kept under my bed. I think I new that I was gay but that was a time and place where that just was not accepted in any way or form. If there had been the slightest admission that I liked dick, I would have been ostracized from my peer group and made fun of for the rest of my time in high school.

To be continued....